All Work & No Sleep Make Leanne.......

CRAZY... my god! I'm a freakin' zoo. Not only do I not feel like myself (the bubbly, effervescent, blonde bombshell that I am.... ) instead I'm moody, I'm sensitive, I'm impatient and I'm angry. Yea, I didn't buy that either... I'm pretty normal but I yawn more & forget......................


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I have had troubles sleeping since I had my cold last week and I think my anxiety and stress are just starting to compound it.

Every night I have been waking up at the same time between 3:30 am to 3:45 am and then I'm hop out of bed, start your day, wide awake. No matter what time I go to bed, no matter how exhausted when my head finally hits my pillow, couch, floor, table, what have you... I wake up at the same time. When I decided to rebuff the familiar and go to bed AT 330... I just turn around and pop up at 7 am (Why I left Penticton so early). My body is working on four hours of sleep a night and it ain't gud.

I did wake Monday & Tuesday night at 330 and managed to drift back off however, like clockwork, my eyes pop open. I feel like I'm in some mild version of Groundhog Day written by Charlie Kaufman (Being John Malkovich, Adaptation) where I'm trying to come to grips with some alternate reality and I just sit listlessly at night staring at the empty programming TV has to offer in the wee hours... before you know it, I'm part of that show & my reality turns into these episodes and eventually am unable to differentiate between TV and reality. One moment I'm stuck in a cyclical tirade of infomercials. Next scene I'm on a date with Zack Morris. Either way I lose. I hated Zack Morris and don't get me wrong, I would not have gone for Slater either. A man in acid wash jeans & a tank top does NOT do it for me. (I know this because that is what he was wearing this morning as I was watching)

Another running theory I've been playing with is whether or not the fact I was born at 330am has anything to do with this recurring blip but it sure is serving as a weird coinky-dink. (HEY, you lie awake for hours and see what thoughts that flow through your mind).

Either way, I don't know why I'm waking up at the same time. I don't know if my body is becoming programmed. Don't know I'm having a recurring dream that startles me awake as I don't remember anything and normally I DO remember my wonked out surreal dreams (THAT is for another post another time). Perhaps I'm just so stressed & anxiety ridden that I can't relax as I do feel plagued with the same recurring thoughts as I lay there.

So thank you for your different suggestions... Yes, gravol is effective and not addictive like sleeping pills. Then of course, there has been the more holistic approach suggested by some where I just need to "release" my tension. Yes, that thought has crossed my mind............... but it just seems like it's one more thing to do and really, enough already, I just want to roll over & go to sleep.