Monday, November 20, 2006

To Waste or Not Waste Your Time....

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately which really isn't a new thing seeing as I'm a Virgo and one of our character traits is to analyze.....

I like to dish out advice and help a friend whenever it is possible but for some reason whenever it comes to myself I'm about a thick as a brick. I don't listen to myself, others nor my intuition. I make excuses for others & hope that if I want something enough, it will all work out. I always think that I give up to quick, that I need to excercise some patience, or what have you... but lately some things have been coming in loud & clear... I sell myself short and not just sometimes.... a lot of the time. I know I'm not the only one that does that... it's pretty human nature especially for women.

But recent events have become eye openers for me and for the first time feel like I'm really figuring out what is I need & want. I always comment that when I was 16, I seem to have it all figured out. I had a pretty good sense of self, I was driven, motivated & got what I wanted, nor did I take BS. I admired that about myself & wish that I could bring some of those characteristics back.

Now I feel those traits were never gone ... they just got pushed aside for a while.... but figuring out what you want, what your standards are and what you will put up with, all help. If you believe in that then everything else falls into place....

I know what I want & it's not you.

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