30........ ugh!

So yesterday was one of my oldest friend's 30th birthday... Which pretty much marks the last of my group to hit the milestone.

I had been prematurely telling people that I was from about half way through 29 becuase 29 was pretty much a moot point.... By that point, your 20's are over but it was gratifying to know that No, in fact I was not quite in my 30's yet.
But all of my friends were trying to sell the merrits of turning 30...

"OH! I've never felt better"
"I'm at such a peace about myself!"
"I have a good sense of who I am"

Wow.. is that all you got? I have a good sense of who I am .. no you don't! You're a neurotic Psycho that binge drinks & sleeps wth too many men.. Who are You? ... A SLUT.. wow you must be proud (OF COURSE I'M NOT TALKING ABOUT YOU.... )

Another reason women say it these things because well, 30 is the beginning of the end. Thirty marks the age where we've stopped blossoming as women & have started the decline to old age. We've tried to fancy up the term.. 30 is the new 20! ya ya ya.. Only cuz as a society we've immatured. BUT at 30, we now have to mark the second box on the survey from now on. Twenties represent a certain amount of innoncence & allowance for mistakes. Thirty marks the age where one should know their path. What they want to do... We no longer are the target demographic .. Why cuz we've lost interest.

Essentially, all of the talking up of turning 30 is propaganda.. a way to battle the onset of depression that your youth/ beauty and stamina is now fading.....does anyone believe this?

All of it is BULL SHIT.. I'm still as screwed up as a I was 6 months ago as I am now... I don't know where I want to take my career. That changes every day mostly cuz there are extenuating circumstances that effect said path.

But another huge difference: I have to use eye cream! How do you use this stuff anyways.. where do i find this.. is there a special counter in the dept store specially for eye cream? I never see anyone at these counters either? Why is that? Do people over 30 not shop anymore?

Also, it's very important I'm told to have a beauty regime..
A beauty regime.. huh. Really? What exactly is that? It's always been said that you need to develop something special for your self that works.. How the hell do I know what works? I wash my face w/ water & fall asleep each night w/ my makeup on & wake up w/ it half way down my face. At least I think so, I can't see it underneath my hair that has fixated to my cheek. And I'm always told I look good for my age (I hope those people aren't just being nice) but I think my mom never meant passing out on the couch w/ a half eaten bag of chips on your lap as a routine so it's back to the drawing board.

Even though I'm bitching about what is lost & will never gain back again.. There are some perks to being a tich older.. I am starting to slowly understand why women become cougars.... Younger Guys LOOOOOVVVEEE older women. I used to always wonder where the guys are ... Bada bing.. they're here... and still JUST as yummy!

I should really focus on my work.... more on my age drama later......